This is a personal testimony of how The Lord Jesus Christ delivered the author from a compulsive eating disorder.
How He repaired the emotional damage caused from suffering abuse, shocks and traumas in childhood and also as an adult
Having to cope with unresolved issues suffered in childhood of trying to deal with the death of a parent, and being unable to go through the normal grieving procedure.
‘The weighing scale was my enemy, and was in control of my happiness, if my weight was low I was happy, if it was high I was depressed.’
‘Sometimes I felt as though I was inside a box, and could see out, but there was a barrier around me, like a wall, which I needed to break out from, but I couldn’t. I could only walk around inside my box, almost like a television set with me inside, and I could look out through the screen. The box protected me, but also stopped me from being real. I felt safe inside it, and although I wanted to get out, my nerves and anxiety sent me into panic, and I would retreat back inside for my own safety.’
‘My mind was a battlefield of negative thoughts, which were mainly directed at myself, and God wanted me to think positively about my body and looks and to stop this self-destructive thinking, which led me to self-destructive behaviour’.
