The German Room

But I don’t have anything keeping me from going back, from picking my life up right where I left off.

I don’t know what it is he has to do, but I envy his busyness. I don’t have anything to do at all.

know I’m fainting because it’s like I’m dying.

Maybe this life I’m living isn’t so bad.

They stare at each other for a second and I gather that they are lovers. Or they were in the past. Or they’re about to be.

we smile at each other, both feeling a little less alone and a little stronger.

feel like this exact instant marks a break in time, as if an earthquake has split the Earth in two,

I smell the clean sheets, I imagine that I’m another person, someone who only cares about what they’re going to do tomorrow, what they’ll have for breakfast, what streets they’ll explore.

No matter where I go I’m still broken. And now I’m thousands of miles from home, in a place where I can barely speak the language and I have no idea what to do.

This is not the right way to do things, but it’s the way I’ve done them and here I am.